Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Loving Food and Life

So I have been reading a book "Women Food and God" and though I do not agree completely with it (like the part where she believes there is no "One True God") she has some very interesting and insightful things about how women view food. For example...we use food to run away from our fears, secrets, pasts, hurts. etc instead of facing them. We don't really want to sit and confront ourselves because we are afraid of what we will find. A quote "Because when we welcome what we most want to avoid, we contact the part of ourselves that is fresh and alive." So thats what she said....this what I say....She Is Stinking RIGHT!!! Atleast for me the book has hit home in many areas of my life....hurts deep down from my dad dying, fear of losing someone else close to me at any moment, and just the general feeling that no matter what I am never going to reach the spiritual level that I should. So I use food to fill the voids and guess what kind of foods that would be...hmmmm....cheesy, yummy, fatty, greasy, warm, toasty, oozy, gooey bits of deliciousness!!! So the hardest part about getting rid of processed foods is the fact that I am getting rid of some of those before mentioned comfort foods. But this book has opened my eyes and I am putting some focus on why and when I eat. The author talks alot about how when ppl loose weight they are still miserable and gain it all back again....I do not want that to happen to me. I am not a miserable person, but I do have some things that I need to confront in myself and deal with pain instead of constantly running for the Hot Pockets or Soft Pretzels to ease it temporarily. Anyways....this is a little bit deeper than my usual food group stories. But I am learning that most women have this problem of running from themselves or their past and some run to shopping, tv or movies, and drugs. Me I run to FOOD!!!! So now I realize that I am not only learning to love food in a new way, but learning to understand myself in a new way too.

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  1. WOW...girl this post really hit home with me - thanks for sharing!

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